feed your mind

As many of you know, and for those who don’t, I have the mental illness that is depression.
It started as anxiety at about 16 at which point I was put on my first pill. By 20 I was diagnosed with my first major depression and that was followed by my second episode the next year.  By 40, I had been through 3 depressions and one nervous breakdown, so to say I am very aware of my triggers by now, is an understatement.
 
These past two years have been unlike any other (captain obvious) and unfortunately it brought out numerous triggers that I found incredibly difficult to escape. Since the start of 2021 I watched my health decline in all ways. By Spring I couldn’t do it anymore… and how did I know it was time to step away from everything and take a break? I had lost ALL control over my emotions.
 
Just like most things in life, mental health is a scale. Most of us have sad days, sure, but we do not wake up sad every day with the complete inability to control it. You see, our mind is what makes us human. It is the tool of Free Will and it allows each and every one of us to create our own realities and it is from our mind, that viewpoint, that we see the rest of the world and as the image says, what you feed that mind is one of the MOST IMPORTANT things in our lives.  What you feed your mind determines what you see, feel, experience and learn.
 
But if you or someone you love has lost control of their mind and no matter what they feed it does not get them out of the ‘slump’, then they have reached a point on the scale in which they need help.
So why did I step away for several months? Because I needed help.
 
Put pride aside. Put embarrassment aside. And put your mental health first.
 
YOU ARE WORTH IT.
​IT IS TIME.

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